Dear Grandma,
I know its two days early but i’ve been holding so much in. It’s that time of year again. I truly miss you. You don’t know how much I need you right now. I feel like I’m on the wrong path. Like I can never do anything right. No matter how much I try. I try not to have those days where I feel so negative to the world. Why is it so easy to do wrong? Please tell me. As much as I drink my pain away or try forget any ounce of sadness I have in me, it won’t leave me. I want to be happy, but I can’t. No matter how much I tell myself I’m happy, I think to myself and ask “am I really?” I shouldn’t complain about things but here I am, writing this. 4 years grandma, I don’t know how I made it this long without you. I don’t know how to hide my pain anymore. I’m having a meltdown as I write this. I can’t do this right now. Talk to you later grandma. Love you. Write to you when that day comes.
